The nanny came today for a few hours so I could show her around, review our expectations and give her some time with Ben before we cut the cord so to speak. Overall it went fairly well.
I realized there are really two things in play here: my confidence in her ability to do the job; and my ability to allow her to do so (without crying).
The good news is I still feel OK about the first. From what I can tell, she seems great with him and has an agreeable disposition. I hope we will work well together. The second may prove more difficult for me. No reason to go into details, surely growing pains are to be expected. But as I listened to Ben cry while going down for his nap, and gave her space to figure things out on her own, it nearly tore my heart out.
On a much happier note, we went to WI this weekend to KJ's lake house for a quick visit and Ben went SWIMMING! With the strongest display of unconditional love seen yet, I put on a bathing suit and twirled him around in the water. Sadly we have no pictures of this first but it was a total joy. Much like the bath tub, you can tell he wants to love it but is still a little uncertain. Fortunately we have the whole summer to work on it.
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